I apologize ahead of time if this post is depressing. I usually try to keep my blog on the lighter side, but in this instance there’s no way around it.
On Friday, after I posted, I got a terrible-news phone call. An ex-boyfriend/friend had died. While I don’t want to go all into it, this person meant a lot to me during my mid 20’s and will be dearly missed. The only thing I will say, is that life is precious. Be thankful for the one you have and if you need help, ask for it.
The funeral was held on Saturday. There was no way I was going to miss it. It was a terrible way to reconnect with a lot of college friends. Although, in some ways, I think my friend’s death brought all of us back together, at least for the time being. We needed each other more than ever.
Redhead got here at her usual time Friday night and was, as per usual, a great friend. She always knows what to say to make me feel better. We stuck to our regular routine except we didn’t get to chat because I was calling some other mutual friends to console/get consoled.
I had taken a sleep aid so I got some rest and then we woke up for our 18 miler. Surprisingly, amidst the sorrow in my heart, it went off without a hitch. I felt physically good on the final nine and P-Funk lent her ear and I got some of those feelings out. Seriously, running friends are the best. I just can’t say it enough.
At one point Redhead and I were running together and I told her I was worried about hitting my goal time. To this, the Redhead told me flat out I needed to get more confidence in my running as I was doing really well. I know she’s right about this.
Immediately after finishing I had to get home and change and head to the funeral which was a little over a two hour drive away. Again, Redhead pulled through here and gave me an audio book to listen. It really helped the miles fly by. (Dan Brown’s The Lost Symbol, I recommend it.)
Funerals suck. That’s all I have to say about that.
After I got back I headed over to V’s for the BRA girls sleepover. It was a much needed fun evening with snacks, ice skating on TV, and lots and lots of funny girl talk. I think things happen for a reason and there was a reason this event coincided with the funeral. I just flat out needed it.
I stayed at V’s until about midnight and was supposed to sleepover but I was just so tired mentally and physically I wanted my own bed and my Lloyd. Not to mention, I had to get up early today and head in to the office since I missed my mandatory Saturday.
Needless to say, after I worked my four hour shift today I was exhausted. I took a nap and skipped my recovery run to hang out with some friends and play some Wii Mario Kart. It was exactly what I needed.
I’m in a very reflective mood right now. I’m sad and mad and again am sorry if this post isn’t my usual light fare. I’ll be back to B.o.B.-ing it soon, but for now I’m just a girl who misses someone that made the world a brighter, better place.