Tuesday, September 2, 2014

August Stats/Recap

I had a pretty spectacular August. Yes, I had a few lows but in looking at the big picture, I'd say I set out what I aimed to do. I saw a few movies, went to a concert, and even got a few great dinners with friends. I'm happy that September is finally here as I'm in the home stretch to Ironman Chattanooga!
Run 132 miles BAM! Hit my goal.
Bike 449 miles - BAM! Hit my goal AND this is the most cycling I've ever done. Ever.
Swim 17 miles - Guess what? BAM! Goal! Right on the nose.
Strength Not happening til after the ironman at this point.
Races Nada. Although, I did do a "ride" called the Tour of Sebring. It was 105 miles of ouch.

Current Reads I finished the final Gillian Flynn novel, Sharp Objects. It was good, not as good as the other two, but just as satisfyingly creepy. I started reading Advanced Marathoning (2nd Edition) as I've seen some great runners use it and I am thinking I'll choose a plan from this book for Grandma's Marathon. And of course, I've been reading and re-reading this:

Current Obsession Saltine crackers. This is completely random, I know, but lately I've been craving them. I'm just gonna go with it.
Current Song I love the Mary Lambert song Secrets (I posted it last week).
Current Need I need someone to come and pack all my ironman crap for me. Oh and tell me what to wear. I'm still torn on all of it. I see a post coming out of that.
Current Triumph I know it's a little early to celebrate, but I do want to pat myself on the back for making it this far in the ironman training. It's been blood, sweat, and tears. Truth.
Current Bane of My Existence Ouchy lady parts and 900 post long ride pimples. Thanks cycling!
Current Goal Yeah, you guessed it, FINISH THAT IRONMAN!
Current Indulgence Copious amounts of Gatorade. I used to NEVER drink Gatorade and now I can't get enough of it. I'm going to have to detox after this race. I accidentally bought a G2 the other day and holy crap it tasted awful. Haha.
Current Blessings The Tuesday AM run group has been amazing. These folks show up every week and I'm so happy to have them. I hope this continues to grow.
Current Excitement Hm. Nothing I can think of. Anything I should be excited about?
How was your August? Looking forward to Fall?

Friday, August 29, 2014

Friday, I'm in love (again)

Hallelujah for Friday! I'm sure most of us are looking forward to a long weekend. If you have to work on Monday, I'm sad panda for you. Maybe you can call in sick? *cough cough*
Since it is the Friday before a long weekend, I thought a post on things I'm loving right now would be appropriate. I don't need to start with how I'm loving the long weekend, because I already said that. 'Member?
I'm loving....
1. The song Secrets by Mary Lambert. My sister told me about it and damn if it ain't the truth. We need to expose those things about ourselves we are made to feel ashamed of. Everyone has a secret that they can let out and not be judged for.

2. I adore this mascara. Also, a recommendation from my sister. She certainly knows a lot of stuff, doesn't she? It's volumizing and lengthening all at once. Genius.
3. Guardians of the Galaxy. Have you not seen this yet? Go see it, right away! It's funny and endearing and action packed. Chris Pratt got ripped and is super easy on the eyes. (Zoe Saldana is there for eye candy, too.) OH, and lest I forget, the soundtrack is killer!
4. I admit that I used to be terrible at getting a recovery drink in me after long workouts and I know how badly my body needed them. While I sometimes grab a chocolate milk if I am pressed for time, I must say this Fluid Recovery in Tropical is my all time favorite. The flavor is great and I look forward to drinking it. It's pretty comparable to all the other recovery stuff on the market, but it tastes way better.
5. For the longest time I carried salt pills to take on very hot days when I knew my sodium levels were low on long runs or rides. I don't like taking pills very much and I hate that stick in the throat feeling you can get if you don't quite swallow them correctly. A friend introduced me to the electrolyte strips and I've been using them ever since. I really love that you can taste the salt because when my body is craving it, I want to actually taste it. I have used two different types of these strips, but this brand is the only one I can currently find on the market.
6. I may have mentioned that I'm running the Rock N Roll Las Vegas Half with the running Elvi (that's plural for Elvis). I was sent to this site to order my custom costume. I couldn't be happier with how nice the owner, Misty, has been through our correspondence. I cannot wait to get my suit! All hail The King.
7.  While I don't love cycling the way I love running, I do really enjoy big, organized rides. This Sunday, a large group of us are heading to The Tour of Sebring for the 105 mile ride. I did this ride as my first ever 100 miler back in 2012 and had a great time. I'm really looking forward to it this weekend!
8. I basically have to have these socks.
9. It's the 30th anniversary of Ghostbusters! And they are playing it at theaters. I. Am. Thrilled. I will be at a showing on Monday for sure. Who you gonna call?
Dr. Peter Venkman: This city is headed for a disaster of biblical proportions.
Mayor: What do you mean, "biblical"?
Dr Ray Stantz: What he means is Old Testament, Mr. Mayor, real wrath of God type stuff.
Dr. Peter Venkman: Exactly.
Dr Ray Stantz: Fire and brimstone coming down from the skies! Rivers and seas boiling!
Dr. Egon Spengler: Forty years of darkness! Earthquakes, volcanoes...
Winston Zeddemore: The dead rising from the grave!
Dr. Peter Venkman: Human sacrifice, dogs and cats living together... mass hysteria!
Mayor: All right, all right! I get the point!
10. I got my ironman Chattanooga race number! I'm #912. It's so close! I heart finish lines.
Have a safe and happy long weekend!

Thursday, August 28, 2014


After this weekend's meltdown, I got a text from a dear friend who has been down this journey herself and who I consider a True North. We messaged about where my head currently is and how I need a reset. (I think I mentioned that in my last post.) She mentioned taking a day off from everything and just watching TV or reading a book, but NO triathlon talk and no training. After all, one day won't derail my race.

I also got some emails and comments reminding me not to worry about time. As much as I wanted to be the person who could handle the stress of ironman training and not let it get to me, I am not that person. I actually thought I would get through the rest of this training without another crying jag. I clearly underestimated how much more tired I would become.

When I started this journey, I had said all along that I just wanted to finish. In fact, when I mentioned that to someone they pointed out how it is nuts to go after something where "just finishing" is a huge accomplishment. And you know what? It IS nuts and it IS a gigantic accomplishment no matter what the clock reads when you hear your name said with those four words.

I suppose somewhere along the lines I lost sight of that simple, yet perfectly rewarding goal. I started seeing friends finish races and discussing MPH and average run pace and plugging numbers into calculators. And I read facebook message boards about how many 100 mile rides should be done and who raced how many times and how they aren't tired AT ALL and LOVE every minute of it! And gumdrops! And sugar plum fairies!  And, oh Jesus, why am I so much more tired? And slow? And can't climb as fast as everyone on the hills? And everything is sore! ALL THE FEELS! And guess what happened? I stressed myself right the fuck out.

Competitiveness can only help you if you can channel it properly. And in my current state of tiredness and over thinking, it led me to Meltdown City, Population: 1.

I needed a reset.

I took the solid advice to heart and shut down the Internets and the ugly voices inside my head and ignored ironman training for a full day. I slept in and went to work and had lunch with my wonderful Stepmom. On those downtimes when I had the urge to peek at a blog, I perused trashy websites that I'd recently replaced with all things triathlon. I am very thankful that the VMA's and the Emmy's were this week. (Holy crap! Did you see that amazing homage to the Britney-Justin Canadian tuxedo?) I got take out sushi, watched some random evening television, took a bubble bath and went to bed early and with a clear head.

The next morning, I got up to swim and actually couldn't wait to hit the pool. I had fun with my sets and realized I more than needed that brain and body break. Sure, there are folks who don't stress or obsess when it comes to training and racing and I think that's wonderful. But, I'm not them and I think everyone experiences this stuff differently. I'd love to be less hard on myself and skip down the street over rainbows, but that's not my path this time or maybe even ever. And that's ok. I'm ever a work in progress.

And just because I want you guys to know that I have more fun-B.o.B.-type posts in me, instead of all this emotional crap, here's an lolcat.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Monday Confessions

Friday Confessions on a Monday. Here we go.
1. I had to ask a male colleague to help me shake the snack machine because it wouldn't give up my Snickers. He then later posted to my facebook the Snicker's Aretha Franklin diva commercial.
2. Some asshat threw a drink on me at 4:40 AM during my run this weekend. I believe it was a screwdriver. I screamed a very loud "Eff you!" I wasn't scared in the slightest. I was furious. I may be insane right now.
3. On Sunday, I had a meltdown at Red Robin (yum!) and cried into my French fries after the S.O. suggested that I wasn't gearing properly on climbs.
4. After the floodgates opened, they couldn't be closed and I also cried into an orange and vanilla swirl ice cream cone later that evening with Meghan. (Why am I never crying into salads?)
5. I am getting too wrapped up in times and paces for the ironman. See, all of the crazy above. Time for a reset.
6. Lloyd peed on my new running shoes. I suppose that's his confession, not mine, but it was because I slept in too long and didn't let him out in time. He gives zero effs when he has to pee. Can't say I blame him.
7. I'm totally writing way too many posts about all of my #firstworldproblems.
8. I saw Tori Amos on Friday and while that's not a confession, the part about having to leave before the encore due to an early training ride on Saturday is. Sad panda. (The rest of the show was awesome though!)
9. Walked out of the new Sin City movie. It. Was. Awful.
10. I COULD NOT get through this crazy training without a support system.